It’s been a while since I last wrote a blog post. Earlier this year, I launched my poetry account on Instagram (see: withlovebyeri) and have grown quite remarkably. People have been supportive of my content, and being around other writers too has encouraged me to write more and improve in many ways.
As much as I love writing, it was a part of me. I have always tried to hide. I was never confident sharing my work in the past, but the pandemic made me realize I shouldn’t be too concerned about what people think. After all, we only get better each time we try and fail. After losing the job, I devoted almost five years of my life. I realized that I should be devoting my time to things that mean more to me. Sure, you can argue, I loved that job, but it isn’t mine, to begin with. I was only a placeholder.
After graduating college, there was this pressure that I had to do better and be more independent but pushing myself so hard sure did more harm than help. I became more distant from my family and friends, a long-term relationship ended, found myself financially challenged, and more. I forgot that I am still finding my way through adulthood and made unsmart life choices. My mental health suffered. I found myself randomly crying more often as I felt I am a failure. And maybe, I am. I was.
Through hitting rock bottom, I realized I am more humbled than ever. I started to acknowledge that I am still learning and that it’s okay to make mistakes and cry sometimes. I am human, after all. However, I need to work on things to get better and reframe my perspective. It became easier to ask for other people’s advice and help after fully accepting and acknowledging the things that happened to me. I eventually learned of the people who love and try their best to understand me.
They helped me pick myself up by listening and giving me advice in life. Some even offered help. I declined most help, though, as I know I can only fully learn from everything by working hard to be better. Thus, here I am today, sharing my story. I am still not in the best situation, but I have been better. So much better than I thought I would ever be.
I hope you, my reader, will pick up something from my life that might help you in whatever you’re going through. Always remember you are not alone.
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